Bday Blues

Birthday Blues

Well... birthday is not just bout feeling happy.... can have birthday blues too...other then the fact that you're one year older... what other thing can attribut to birthday blues?? here's a list i came up with...

1) Having your loved ones forget its your birthday
2) Having expectations for the Birthday celebrations and not having it met
3) People you think will remember your birthday, din remember
4) Waiting expectantly for something to happen but nopez..
5) No one remembered its ur birthday
6) No one msg-ed, or called or wished you..
7) Its the last birthday you're gonna celebrate..
8) Having no one to celebrate it with you

Hmmm..cant think of anymore.. what else??? well... Was saying... sometimes i do get birthday blues... *since Sec 4 till now* cos my bday always coincides with exams time..so my Pre or Post bday celebrations would usually be more happening then my actual bday itself..

But thank God this' year was different... spent it with people who are close to my heart.. =)

but wun deny the fact that i did feel alittle down still this year.. *always do* whenever its bday..cos.. guess what? my own parents forget my bday... lala.. and then it will get me into the whole "depression" state of... sighz.. why why why....

Well bday would be near perfect... but well my so called Dad called me... well He did remember it was my bday...called and talked a whole load of stuffs... asking how I've been and if i face any problem...let him know he will help... WHAT CRAP lorz...

Point is... why bother?? after all these years of leaving us to fend for ourselves..cos "we turned 21 liaoz" , leaving us to my aunt and family (not even doing ur part), why bother to come and ask if i am doind fine? OF cos i am... I survived and i will survive..and its not cos of YOU... so dun come and pretend to be nice and be the 'father' now..

One fren said: "refuse to think the worst, but just cant help thinking if its because you n bro have started working, and he knows he's growing old, and his other family is not working out" Yeah.. agree with my fren... lalal..

Okies.. this is an issue in my life i think i need to deal with... never feel soo much against him before.. not untilll i left Uni and started work... the not so nice feeling i have towards him just started growing.... Oh best.. and to think i dun harbor that much not-so-nice feeling towards my mum n tt stepfather of mine....

~^Pissy mood^~